I was stupid yesterday. I took the last 9 remaining grams for psilocybe Mexicana I had, a day after the wonderful initial 5 grams try I had. I wasn’t convinced and I took them in a kind of resigned way. Not to waste them. I wasted them. I did nothing right after that. I jumped…… Continue reading Waste.
I have about 8 grams left now I think. I hesitated first taking them tonight. Three nights in a row may be counter-productive. I don’t really know yet. Everywhere I have read that the tolerance goes really fast and it is pointless to take day in a row, if you don’t increase dosage. But I wouldn’t want 8…… Continue reading Protocol #1 ?
The day after my first very disappointing trial I decided to try again. Saturday, February 4th 2017, 8pm, 5 grams of psylocybe Mexicana. Still not much but I am doing baby steps as said previously. I am on my own (no sitter, which is not recommended for psychedelics) and new to this, so I am following…… Continue reading Nice Try.
Friday, February 3rd. 11pm. Empty stomach. Bored blank mind. I took 3 grams of “magic” truffles psilocybin Mexicana. It was deceiving. Only 3 grams, yes. I was a bit scared after reading a lot about the risks. I just wanted to dip a toe in the water. I was alone. No sitter to get me…… Continue reading The first try.
For years I saw this around. Articles etc. It was in a corner of my head. Then I finally started to work on myself beforehand. I assessed what I could gain from it and what I could loose. Taking anything is never innocent. And I am not necessary talking about drugs. Medicine too. I was…… Continue reading Psilocybin.
I’m not particularly depressed. I mean I don’t think so. Some people think I am an extremely pessimistic/ sad person. I lost a lot of “friends” this way. I didn’t mind. I avoid most of my friends anyway. The only one I can keep are those who live far away; it’s easier this way. I have…… Continue reading pre -2017 state of mind.